Tuesday, February 8, 2011

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"Well, what the hell" in the Dude, all cups cupboard?

Hmm ....
I thought I was done, yes. But I do not know if I botch it, or maybe subconsciously wants to get up to. Sina or because of me apparently expected me to help as I always comfort them.

Today she was in the theater. Eventually I got was a indian sms, it would be so many pretty girls there who would like her Karl. I answered only to the fact that then it will still struggle with the Karl. Moreover, the fallen maybe even someone from your course or perhaps Jascha, or mine?

Sina nciht know what you want. I think I know, because at least I'm pretty sure.
you on the phone with me talking about it with me and said how stupid is treated as it sucks them like I was cool but on the other hand and the best is, you have no desire to Him! She wanted to finish it slowly. In part she says it with a force here that I think it almost happened.
Instead, she tells me we should have less contact because karl otherwise separated from it, if we maintain contact. Charles would split up if we would go together for Valentine's Day candle light dinner. Karl here, as Karl.

If I you respond to how much they still seem to do everything so that it remains separated from her, although she has garkeine tired of him talking to you (???), out so that everyone would fail no is perfect I would not understand, maybe I do not, I am in any event the ass.

Okay, that's way it is.
Okay, then she should: to stay with him. Do what he asks. Valentine's Day spending at home. WHATEVER!

Just let me be in peace, if he does exactly as usual, the which he gets on the hands. What brings you to tears!

They just said they will not talk to me because of my sms this afternoon. It hurts me. I honestly do not know whether I should cry.
one hand, yes, because it hurt me, they just reject me. On the other hand, I wanted to bring her only thought they should have. The indifference that they morning already brought to me when she found that her nciht feierabend and mine fit together and we are yet to make nciht.

"Well, what then?"

Ey, hello? This is not at all. sms previously have thought "yay she wants to meet me," then this "so what" of something like indifference. When she then ne sms said "yes that was in the moment meant even indifferent" threw me over. So my very hard sms later. That was the same to me.

"Well, what then?"
Since you say something like: "Too bad, you would like to have seen" or "hmm, you can not do anything," Something just! but something so obvious nciht egal'es shit! "Well, what then?"

I know exactly why I'm just nciht bissl aggro.
Weil MCIH annoyed that they nciht want to talk to me? The fact that she does not? The fact that it makes these thoughts? That it is it simple nciht? Because I realize now that I swap c and i? ...

Because I notice that I abbrösel to her? 'm Your care? Is it me? I just think ...

... I do not know. But she does not love me, that's for sure. I should start to accept it.

For Sina and Jan

what never will be.

is my hope ... low.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

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schande1988 @ 2011-02-06T10: 10:00

It is kind of not easy.
All possible tell me and I know myself, I broke it.
is the worst I know, but I do not want it otherwise, I do not want to lose what little I get from it.

One minute phone call, she told me a scene most of yesterday evening. Apart from the fact that she constantly tells me how hot her outfits were, they told me about a black light scene with her in underwear in front of Karl. What should be the reasonable of these is surely clear, but they told me that and said she was so hot that she had to touch myself ... It hurts. Damn it! Why does it hurt

so? I have the feeling that you would betray me.
But it does not, because we are not together! But that's in my head is no longer pure.

I put back now so much, I have lost myself in it. My whole day I would go by it when she says she wants to see me. Only ...

you will never do something to me because they
1.Hat Karl as a friend
2.bin I was only a buddy for them also because they
3.Does point2 nothing to do with myself if punkt1 termination is set

The knowing is devastating. In particular, even if we are not. I treat them like my friend, I feel for them as for my girlfriend and I would do anything for them as well, and with it, as for my girlfriend.



I'm in love so badly ...

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

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beginning, or perhaps rather a new ending?

It is confused, in one hour I will not, on the other day I miss it so unbelievable that I could cry.

Yesterday we had arranged to meet, for the movies. Before she came to her school to me. After our conversation when I Sperl was not so sure how it would run. Surprisingly, it was kind of like always, no, better.
It was very harmonious as long, not more. She was a good mood, so ne mixture of cute and funny. This little cuddly. I found it totally enjoyable.

everything I've forgotten what I had planned to have, but I will actually but not at all.

Any problems, consider all, everything around us, because it was just me and the floor.

I have no ulterior motives, or they will not affect in any way. She said something like that. She said that is just about the conversation, and her dilemma. I was not at all thought about and I had not before taking any influence on it. It was only as she was here with me, she was in the moment mine, somehow. I felt fine, I felt good and her smile lit up the room, she is so beautiful when she laughs. the eyes are so small and all their cheeks, her mouth no, no, somehow it seems even more beautiful ...

I do not know where I am. I want to experience everything with her. But I have a partially dissociates far. I was not sad when she was gone. I do not expect a good night sleep but just sms back. Not a good morning. I feel much for Sina, but I'm back in the beginning, now it's up to me how far I want.

in turn one I was working a while later. They said they would have imagined in my born already more with me, I would be so mean to her nciht become. This annoys me now as it were, but then again, even if I for the night at my party with you such a lot of thought went, I was not at all to the actions of her and Tina more them enthusiastically. That was too wacky, too annoying, just more annoying. With the three of us I would have gone fully on it, but I was not in the mood, too childish, nothing happened, Sina was funny, I was weird for Sina, and Tina is a child who would never have made even the top rum-free . She would have let me and Sina alone, it would have been okay. But never mind.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-30T09: 20:00

An interview by finding no equal ... I hate something. I hate problems that are unresolved.

Sina I find it funny that she likes to come over so, for I no longer want, or actually already but I lack the motivation. Between us there was

times so damn good. only one or two steps and we had been together, I see that, but damn it all went wrong ...

We talked on Friday with one another, I told her that I no longer have the drive to continue to excavate around her, her appeal as super great I think all that damn how pretty she is. I would like to do, I would like to do ...

She told me I was a good buddy for her, now I try to be prepared to engage or whatever. I WILL NOT LOVE YOU. It's so hard when it does not .... She understands non.

Yesterday we talked in the semi-sparkling again, and before that. Here are the following things have been said of it:

"You know what is not love, or love also means surrender!"

I know what love is. And I have not already given? Did not I already 3months energy, money and time invested, and yet compromising on their love? On kissing, having sex, on Sina, because Karl was there? I have divided them knowingly. I've Built leave, and destroy it from him again, I cried with her when she was crying, I was bleeding internally when Karl put it flat, or she was crazy about him. I have around me 3months tortured, and now that I can see no more progress, because I may not try to separate? It hurts I just cry.

"3Wochen we were together, and I'm with Karl for over a year together, what do you know how I decide that?"

After your heart. That would be the good races of art. Not by how long you know someone. It hurts. I get this messed up three weeks rubbed under the nose. She wanted to companies trying what she said yesterday, party, etc., make
I've been thinking about it I have a few things occurred. I had no car, not even Sina. travel by bus or train, they will now only very reluctantly. Money they had at that time almost never. Please know how to employ you as great? This time we were eating, were traveling in a pet shop and have brought Prince we were with Tina, we were much more on the road.
We also have a lot more done with me. The only thing we never did was to go celebrate. I'm afraid. I know Sina drunk at Natasha, and thereafter as Jascha than their birth celebrations are in stone as they celebrated together with jmd, in the LMH, sperl from a year ago ...
on all fetuses with whom I was with her she was around with anyone or was totally resistant. I'm afraid to not be important enough then, and she sets out to jmd ran another. It hurts still, the idea of carnival in Sperl, my nervous breakdown.

"So you take off my decision, but I do not want me You abnimmst them."

I take nothing from you, I'm leaving before I lose myself, if that is not already ...

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-26T17: 22:00

I sit in front of so few phone calls with her. Strange things were as cautious.
Not only, thing that she has to Karl these days and exchanges. Honestly, I've either freundin ne or not. So whenever I had one, though short, was it always so that we tried to take wherever he goes! and have an agreement when they see ... which one makes divorce with children, sry is nunmal Sun Above all, it was
Monday, as proposed by them to come to me, maybe even every Monday. This was partly her karl day off, I come to my bissl ersatzt than before, kA. But since the conversation is no longer the worth mentioning, except have so changed now.
evening is then occurred to her that Karl apply even in February, where her musical cards, is not even there, on the phone she sounded full of despair because they did not know whom she should mitnehemen there ... Not before too long ago before that she had already asked me, if not more karl wanted, I agreed. Well!

Today was strange it fully. Ask me whether what we want to do today. I said basically, yes. because what they think? kahm back only "ka, then just let wirs" Hello? with wasn? I threw first matter, have then said that I had just asked if she had an idea. oh well, she wrote again, and Joa in the end came out that they at 15:30 am until the end I was at home at 17:30 and answering their was only "Jut, does not fit.'s look anyway in 2 days." unnecessary formulation but I had no more money on the phone, have been better Maybe so.

plane, she called me, her mother stressed out, and when she called Karl to ask if they can come, says the "no, it will be sina free day." In retrospect, quite funny, as the play type with sina, sina, and still with the remains, but so sad that they are not buckled up. But ok, I just think it's their problem.

I do not write it more di and Thursdays, ka. I have no desire to do her a good night when she sleeps with Karl. I see it a not.

general actually, I should distance myself as it were, after all, Karl is her main theme, whether she even knows who she is really talking as if they praise him or for him Ausheult?

I mean ... In my view, is important to me that if we do something about phone calls, or, or else what to do. The fact that we are the main theme, and something which we both Affected, and not this Halbtucke of would Makker.

times you have to be clear. I see no progress. Demotivated me something like that, in general. She once asked me whether I could wait, I can wait! But setbacks like, I do not wait. It's just a mountain from, I see at Sina not think it pops.
While it is somewhat like the sun. We know at some point it makes Puff and our solar system is history, but when and if it will happen really times that we do not know exactly. Until then we are dead. And property in Sina, I want at the moment do not have to wait so long ...

And I am patient, yet I have a big drum, deep lake, or anything else, but something is usually also full-time.


I'll clear views on bissl, then I have tomorrow and Friday to do less. Baba

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-25T18: 46:00

I have a headache. For days, but already, somehow it started last week. But now it is somewhat bearable. As for me much more disturbing, my rash, I sometimes get. For some reason, the proposed today to something more in training than the last time, I had been looking forward eig that is almost gone, hmm ...

Today is my first birthday present XD come 2 days early, but I had to open the package because I had ordered himself nothing, not even my parents so I was curious. But it is not confirmed, but I assume very strong believe that it has sent my uncle XD. Now a Native Band Hero, nothing more stands in the way. ^ ^

Sina is with Karl. Although she has not said today, but yesterday it meant their days were replaced, as ka, but ich würde es gerne so betonen wie es grade in meinem Kopf klang. (sarkastisch) Es stört mich. Karl stört mich. Mich stört, dass Sina sich noch immer mit diesem Typen abgibt, es kotzt mich an. Sie fehlt mir, und hockt bei so nem Typen rum, und hofft irgendwie dass es noch was wird, dass bei ihm ein Schalter umgelegt wird oder sowas, kA. Ich höre, grade die Musik an, die netterweise die Caro mir mitgegeben hat, für meinen geb. evtl. Vielleicht finde ich was.

Hmmmm....seuftz... kA... mir fällt nichts ein. Bin heute bissl neben der Spur, das Motorradfahren war auch grad nicht so gut wie sonst, der Verkehr behindert meinen Fahrstil. Hmm musik is schrott, nur so youtube geklaut, da fehlt der Bass! vor allem weil I do not mean sub get enabled media player with

Sunday, January 23, 2011

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-23T16: 41:00

I do not know quite what to write.
I only feel that I have to. Between Sina and I'm nothing more. We write, and sometimes we call, two days before we have yet to meet, and yesterday in sperl more or less random.

I do not know what to do with her. I really like it.
But I place no hope in it. I've been really disappointed every time only.
I took half a day Thursday NEN free because we wanted to meet you, I collect them from school and stuff. It then came to nothing, I was really looking forward to it.
Thursday Tomorrow, she writes me something where I was surprised even right, it was something like a beginning of the end. It found that Karl is an ass, and they accept it viell. that in order to gain distance and then make statements. I thought the go. In the evening she was short with me, as I then saw that she had her engagement ring on her luck chain, I knew this was again just hogwash.

retrospect, I realize that I pretty much any hopes, expectations that I sat in Sina were somehow destroyed it. Started long ago in December, where I'm really, we are a few. Smoke and mirrors.

I'm not really happy. I have nothing that I it really has to feel joy. I sit around and wait to speak, only at home waiting out the hours that go over now and I can sleep. So at least I can go to work, an occupation that gives me at least 8 hours a day the opportunity to prove myself and my feelings are not to be there for nothing.

For my birthday this time I have invited people that I have not been the primary school. Just as long I have not provided you celebrate my birthday in the sense to do. I'm curious times on friday.

sina I want that I can not deny. But as it maintains its karl hard as I can not win. This makes me sad, that's why I remember not at all what to do.

The longer the already goes, no matter the more it is me. Only until I see her again ... I can not but be only for her to do ... Habs still taken

Friday, January 14, 2011

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-14T15: 14:00

handy ....

na j, at the moment I have no feelings to charge me for it. I was looking for 2nd time this week at the fittness. I'm done bissl, so happy and surprised as my mirror in the dressing looked like. I've just seen a porno, at first I thought the first few seconds it was sina and Karl, but then much to me that sina is not that great and not so well equipped to be karl , since he is a women understand for doing so so good to talk to him XD. And in general, both of which were a little too old.

Sina is in Bremen, with their grandparents. she told me last night still texting, iwann just before 23h. called me around midnight unknown and hung up. then much has me helena iwie born or had in any case now so rum. Have congratulated her but otherwise nothing.
I surf at the moment of distraction at various sites around and chat single hangouts. I look to women to study are, as with WKW. I only watch it distracts. It is also much scrap it, and the really interesting are the young.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-13T20: 50:00

I am still crazy, I'm totally by the wind, and when I record have made, it will probably be all clarified again but it's about now!

I'm totally nervous. we have just written still sms and we will most away to Bremen as far as I know, she also said nciht Karl knows what he wants. I think they tried it again with him and was disappointed again. about the flight to Bremen. But how, with whom, and what are they doing? Age, I am turned so rad! My thoughts go

paths that are so cruel to me, I can not check any other me it does not matter if it is at times we stop further away. But with her ... maybe because I told her so much confidence, I am jealous and afraid at the same time ... my Thoughts go from something like a guy who likes to know them, perhaps, through the internet, she meets, spends in the. About Sextreffen, sexbeziehung, anything which another guy is in connection, where she may be things that they should rather do with me, could be in situations in which it has no control, it is in danger! I am concerned, I'm jealous I'm afraid and I is like crying to mute ...

I always want to know everything about it, over it to know what she does, where it is, who she sees or who she's talking ...
other hand, I've been wondering when the fear of the answer ...
I'm a deer which is in the spotlight of an approaching car it stares fascinated but the danger is so aware of how anxious is.

(which fits great)

I will leave my phone at home tomorrow. completely break the contact. Sry, too, because I want to be accessible for them, but it is doing just hurt so much, but the idea they could have spent one night this week at karl. A disgust, a shudder, just total jealousy, while I have to let go, let go I should, but I want it but not at eigendlich * * heul

What should I do? The situation so familiar in the Journal, but often I was so confused, so hurt even more after while. Just a friendly
said that he had read my journal and wonders is just that I do not even hang on the rope. Honestly this is sometimes tempting, but somehow I'm so sensible. Somewhere I've got friends to help me, I am happy to help me, I have a future that could help me. I

future, and think of it at some point to feel a joy to be able to conjure up a Patronus to own the living hope of this pleasure in keeping me on that.

I breathe schwer.ich hear Apologize.ich just want abschalten.ich will ... I do not know Sina. But without them, life is difficult, one can be hypnotized to forget someone?
google I now actually know

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-13T17: 45:00

I am not at all how I feel. I know not at all write exactly what I want or should. I only know me a lot goes through your head what I can not grasp.

"She is not from the world" She said a few days myself. Because I cling irgndwie fixed, I do not want it but that's another one of the radio gives me hope. I think I should not let go I have to?!

shit, I think all the time still in them. I hear very little of it, all I have to pull out of her nose, what is their plan? Will you help me? No idea this would be a nice feature but I'm worried me. As long as the moment we have no more phone calls, I have since Sunday does not view ... I miss her. Karl

they will again. If I had a chance, I would not be here but would tear my arms and legs for sina. I asked her what she's up to him now, she said "hmm, ka." I was expecting, she says she tried it, and I'm sure she thinks it at least. That makes me sad.

you make yourself scarce, I think, at least. or hiding something to me. Why do we talk so little? Sun listless when we do it? I do not know ....

I will still Sina. This makes it complicated. She asked MCIH Monday if she can sleep at me Thursday, I was not sure but would permit it. now I think you will it is not at all on its own more, rather it's asleep in him.

Maybe they also whom in promising new? why we write little.

MAN! As much as I miss my cat on my nerves!
I can not change somehow?

Saturday, January 8, 2011

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-08T18: 04:00

I'm sitting here right now, and rigid thinking no holes in the glass-top table. Sina and I talked, just do it or not, she does not answer precisely.
But as I sit here, I just run alternately tears from his eyes, the mouth angle I drink each. My great love, I could not turn down without a guilty conscience, I have always tried to do everything right, gives me a basket. I resigned and suffering. I must suppress my feelings for them extinguish. I will not erase them.

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schande1988 @ 2011 -01-08T17: 22:00

I will not have to behave.

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-08T16: 55:00

I am depressed because I've been rejected confirmed.
A part of me does not care. Another could losheulen. I just find myself in conflict between the two, and none can accept both.
In bed she told me I would be a good friend, like a brother. I was not aware it was a basket. I was just quiet and I thought, this is exactly what I had feared inside. A buddy-friend, I will not be, I want to be a brother. With a brother or buddy to catch never a relationship. I just hate it.
a basket. If I doubted the most, and did not know what to do. If she always raved about Karl and I noticed that since I see more garkeine chance to get past him, I was thinking in my innermost "why are they not give me a basket?". Because then I would have known what was done, I would have distanced myself, I would have left at rest. Had it jascha told me not flat, they would have put him so I would have perceived it as nciht. But then at least have the two that I had tears in bed while justified, just because I have the feeling though but I can not cry.

me it's shit for days, because it is so stupid and wants to have it. She says she is not sure, but in everything she does and says, puts it all a little hope.

I like them but I can not continue to love without harming themselves take a sense, if I do not even wear them.
but now I can not let alone somehow. But I know now when I go to bed I'll cry, I will suffer, because my bed smells like her.

other hand, has me really well nciht / treated nicely lately. I have stood by her, suffered with and supported and spoken. And if there were only little things, like organizing the chips, tea, various small attention to only have done to her a little bit of joy to make, to have shown attention to show "here who cares how you're doing, find someone to take care of you" Of course I'm
grumpy when I travel all day from her friends must hear, of course I am shocked and disgusted when she talks about sex with him. About sexvorschläge or ideas with me, I was glad I was, had got me. And I would have done, because it's you that I love, which I would like to share everything with which I would like to have sex. What I care about the others? But that is apparently yes, definitively, with the dream of the woman I dreamed of. I get out waiting for my train of what it brings to me is that it brings me to hope for. I'm upset, I do not know what they encouraged me, but it has continuously maintained at the bar. On Wednesday evening we had on the phone even before she had me and every now and again assured that I should cease to doubt. But my doubts are even now just been confirmed only pretending. I can beat up by it yesterday, my body is silent and the vehicles with safety or 2weeks. I did it because I wanted them to feel good, better. Shutdown can let their anger run wild. Now I feel the only way before use. The consolation, the big brother ... I hate it I want it be nciht. And I know I never will be her friend, never as it was karl never Sun before I'll be someone else, someone new, or old. Anyone, but I never in life. Now I have to just let tears.

I do not know how to behave, I'm assuming we'll meet again, and some days even in the next. But I think I will not be like always, so that they will ask me what's going on. I would not have said it nciht because I Kloss one in the neck of my voice might take, as on Wednesday night in their car in the train station Eitorf. It will not please her, and I'll again made ready. But if I tell her it is not their please and it will be just as bad. This morning I was just unhappy with the whole situation. Now I'm disappointed, insulted and completely superfluous to my feelings.

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-08T09: 52:00

It hurts, really. I want her I will stand by to help her. but it does so it hurt.
She talks about him she likes him, I'm jealous and she knows, she knows that it hurts.

And the worst thing, I was afraid of it, I'm just a dude type, her brother, her "best" friends. I do not want that, because that is meistends nothing. Since the resulting inhibitions really should not be there. I love Sina but sometimes I think I only give "me finally a Basket "may be easier to walk me to distance myself again. But I will somehow absolutely not! No idea. Not at all just now and the last day ... I know what I should write more because I just feel used only as a sop. I do not even like it might be to lead a normal relationship with her even, there's just so much confusion at the moment.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

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schande1988 @ 2011-01-04T20: 33:00


... yes well ... no idea.
I just feel me kinda sad. Sina it goes bad.
While I have nothing to do with it, but I'm doing bad. knowingly because I think it will continue to make every effort to maintain a relationship with Karl upright. I'm sad about it, I said you what I think of it and think to keep it fairly well. She wants to fuck a relationship with a guy out of the good talks and maybe nothing more to appreciate Sina know. He does not want kids, no house, no wedding and that nothing really what makes a relationship to keep upright long.

Sexfreunde internet you can get in if he needs help though I'm a big spam mailbox.

If I have someone love, and I know I am doing it. Then I will but favor with these people from now until the end of his walk together, through thick and thin, raise children, build or buy a house, plant two trees and for take care that all are well fed and all goes well, at least this is my biggest goal. That which is striving for ICH, which is why I want a girlfriend. Without sex, I'm far from a long stretch of well alone.

At the end of my life I would have said: "I've led a good life with my beloved and my beloved to you, it has lacked for nothing.."

It is idealized, but nevertheless this is one of the reasons why I am not from the bridge falls, me chasing a ball in the head or me unceremoniously schupse without a parachute from the plane.

I have friends who make any shit by EVERYDAY. It does not matter whether because of love, or job, or school, or whether they just had a shitty shitty day. From some I know about what goes on in them, they talk to me. One of them makes me really care, because who says things that are already at the limit.

But, what good is it now to bury our heads in the sand? With final dissolve any problems. You can them out of the way, they stop, or just talk about it.

I doubted myself again and again, it is firmly anchored in this journal. Doubt, because I know at some point is no longer. I'm not often that I love someone. The most famous are hardly got a Hdl addition, if at all. When I fall in love, then I do it, then ... I am but unfortunately in the end often destroyed, have been.

In my life there have been only two great friends, Susan and Sina. Sina And is there truly unmatched. Would I let her go, she and her relationship go their way and let me go back, both in word and writing as well as in attendance, I would still love them no less, because for a long time, I'm sure.
But I would be willing to do so.
Why? Because I know how it hurts. Rejected become. Fooled become. Abandoned. I know pretty much many types of pain, the love the end of a love or an unfortunate accounts. The only thing I truly nciht know how to be making a decent connection.

I have so much doubt before, and considered both to be at rest. Simple reason, to protect me from this pain. Ignorant, it suffers just becomes easier.

I know the difference now sue if Sina is crying from emotional, or if she is suffering emotionally technical. I feel for her, I'm feeling stupid, because I want to help her stand by her, I would immediately go. But I can not, I can not! I am very excited so on! I want that she is fine. I will do anything for that.

I want at the end of my life also can say to her: "I have a good living out ...."




For to me is Sina, the woman with whom I would like to be old, no matter who is still running around out there.

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schande1988 @ 2011-01 -04T10: 53:00

Where I am so so lazy writing really is, here were a lot. Some but somehow I suspect that because I wanted to Sina to know. Experiencing what I feel and what they meant to me.

Well you read it ...
Well Karl has also recently read, you should decide to Sina. And when they told me I had to write it should not, for now. And they tried even more to have a chance to save their relationship ... What should I actually build for? I mean, how do I know whether it is "worth" or whether I just like the last year largely spent. to spend? I like them, really. I want more than just a friend be easier for them. And yet I never think about it so often must, what should I do. (Which seems to me just before heavy known?)

But seriously. Sacrifice is all well and good, sometimes. But with her I am not sure where I stand. She tries to use every opportunity to save their relationship, but I have to put back. Oh, forget the sentence before that, just dawned on me. But on the other hand, I have, because it says something to me, sometimes the feeling it could have the positive . Develop No idea, honestly. At the moment I am when I think of a line like, between "hope there's something" and "Forget it simply tries to get along well only" I am currently rather well on the last page.

I will not get rid of them, I will not let go, but I think for me personally, it might be better. I love her since then, been born to Natasha angraben I wanted it, the more beautiful it was to have been born then be invited to their own. And then oh well, everything went his way.

If time will tell. Perhaps the two eventually marry, or sina is shot by him. But just as it can get quite different and it is perhaps tomorrow already? No idea. But if so, I'm on the spot. This is my chance to build a relationship vll.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Jumpers Which You Can Personalize

schande1988 @ 2011-01-04T07: 37:00

What do I actually going straight? She has not written to me, why should she? She has a boyfriend with whom she is apparently happy.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Panasonic Dvd Player 941

schande1988 @ 2011-01-02T22: 24:00

It is unnecessary in the nature of truth. Censorship, in a sense of something is what no one apart from me. Write to

Freedom what I want, the freedom to say what I want, the freedom to blaspheme about whom, when, and where I want to be firmly anchored in the German Basic Law (Basic Law Article 5 § 1). If at this point someone feel compelled to violate the Basic Law in accordance with Article 5 § 2, he shall tell me this and I am legally required to change.

It is not fair, that was before. It is not normal. Let alone mentally acceptable, or justifiable. I think, no, I think it plays its cards sometimes easier. In war and in love everything is permitted, but fewer people die in love, is it not? At least not physically.

I be silent, must. What am I good, but not like when I have to.
I need hope. What is really only something for theologians.
I have actually not lost more than usual. Hmm ...
I, an ambition. The force is my
I am proud of my Trophies. You draw me out and show me what I was capable.

But now, and for quite a while, I've probably put an end to what is perhaps unattainable. After all, I am in this situation because you tried to save a relationship by which I understand, nor can recognize as good.
mhm yes, a friend of the stink normal friend from the street, I feel now. As much as I wish with it a serious relationship, so far on the horizon I can not fathom it. She introduced me again to new hard samples.

What I feel now, I can not exactly grasp. I was not even upset when they asked me to be silent. I was taken aback, but I was not really mad. As initially thought, disappointed not really true, because I would have expected nothing. I am not sacked. I'm just hurt only by my damn cat. Or maybe because of her, I really do not know, I can not even grasp. This back and forth makes me crazy. I have a headache and sick to me also, and yes I am also mad when I approach only imagine how she's trying to save a relationship with a full body use to do. I am seasick.

I can not blame you really do not be so used. I mean, it's really ehrenswert, in which a ship to repair or is. Nevertheless, even if we never went so far as it hurts me deeply to have to imagine it alone.
honorary certificate at the National Youth Games, multiple awards at the German Sports Badge, Golden swimming badges and certificates in various disciplines, from gymnastics to table tennis, football champion in the C-Junior, second in the A-youth. A defeat I can not stand good. But I know when I come to my limits.

to lose, but against a sleazy, female (somehow) guy. Meanwhile Lackschüchchen are both unnecessary and his strange hairstyle across the face because I do not see! I have enough honor and dignity, to fight out last. Should I still lose, I can say "I have tried." Not obliterate it by one, he is busy enough so that the hair to wave off his face, no, because I can say "I did it for love, to Sina. Touché!

's see what I do. :-) Oh man oh man oh

Saturday, January 1, 2011

What Does A Business License Look Like

schande1988 @ 2011-01-01T23: 43:00

man oh man ....

as I write something like this that I do not intend nor want to understand teens, because I've always grad a fairly mangled neck, and then hear no more of Sina. hours later and a few sms me if I make sure I made a mistake and that I hope to have aroused nciht. She replies, "But have you" and I'm starting to sweat, I tremble and must consider what it is. I call it directly, the mailbox turn, I chat on it and shortly after that in turn I get a sms "You did not do wrong, I have only slept"

I had this window open here already, is to me a stone from the heart please ...
called me in particular "suppressed" in silence, if not sina was it can only be one -.-
The annoying! And then this timing.

Sina I belong only to you. uff ... now I'm also tired enough to sleep, and I hope I have not really made any mistakes.

How To Accompany In Mount And Blade

schande1988 @ 2011-01-01T17: 59:00

tzz as if I now make an entry here:-P

I think it was great to see them again. It is also, as always painful Sina to have to let go. But unlike their bites and beats, this is pain less superficial than sell manner. At first I was really restrained. I had my last day is presented as if it is back on my doorstep. I have always embraced and given a kiss on the neck. But as nunmal so, it was not so. It stands on my doorstep and is freaked out because of a toal dog that was there down the road out ^ ^.
We were traveling, they thereby become really know much about me. Maybe a few things that she does not understand this or misinterpreted. So they told me today tied several times under the nose, I was unsure of myself and doubt. This is as it was when she told me I would not only love this time has it right. I love them, I'm also sure her because, more than usual this is only one form of uncertainty, because it always shows me how she performs because of Charles. An eye in my messed up relationship. And I try and I have the feeling there not come to turn over. It should behave so because I do not because of Karl. While I do not have a present before Sina ground.
I Will Sina. But it's easy not to have to think such a chance to be better than him.

why am I been in this dilemma. to think about whether I continue to target the big sacrifice, or give up and allow the two to make her own thing and resign myself to just have to.

Sina told me today and yesterday, I do not doubt. Basically, it keeps me in line, but I trust her and stay with her. I hope so I really hope there is an end to her and Charles, a clearer than last time an end, as it should be. Thus it is free and then maybe I can prove myself.

We were now a couple of hours together, we have had fun and a few hot moments, my heart races, as always, and as feared. As they lay on the sofa, she looked at me once and I was like "wow," she looked like a movie star, somehow she reminds me so pretty. I'm currently playing, so ... fully by the wind. I like it not at all let go of everything, they feel every inch that I reach, just "WOW". A culinary masterpiece for nerve endings and eyes.

short ride before she did, we had a moment, she stopped him, they had apologized. I was unsure, I thought I made a mistake, you put too far? I challenged them to speak and then there was the matter of the doubt again, which they had read.
I doubt not your on, I doubt if I will not. God, I want no one else! Only if we can reach a common future, without Karl. My

"ess" table stands on a fictitious list, think of this picture I get so soon no longer the head, but I will somehow not at all XD.
It is good, so to speak. it is only a certain point far. This is truly honorable. But if she is my friend, I'll be so jealous whenever she is with a guy. It is after all, together with Charles and with me it makes things ... I love it, it's like a demo version of a game. I want the full version ^ ^. I want Sina v1.0 I love her, I want to be their friend. But not just for the cuddle because of the hot situations, I will savor every moment with her say, and can "Hey, this bride here, you heard me, you loser!" Although it is difficult times, and that is it I want to be with her because she is just great, this whole package Sina is just as exciting and and and and and and and and .... awesome. The

one of my Tollsten January 1 is the experience I could ever. My great love is returned back to me after the stupid thing on Christmas Eve. I'm still suffering. I hope I see Sina again soon, I would still so much to do with her. she wanted to go shopping with me. How well did a while back on once thought to go swimming. No matter where you go with her, I will. ^ ^

I feel for the first time in a long time, great. So right and sober.